Durante el curso pasábamos todos los Viernes enteros en la Escuela haciendo números. Solíamos quedar por la mañana con amigos para practicar lo que sería el ejercicio que nos pondrían por la tarde, y luego hacíamos una especie de examen en un aula gigante durante dos o tres horas . La práctica consistía en resolver un problema bastante largo de Cálculo sobre una estructura, cada Viernes era un problema diferente y si os digo la verdad no recuerdo nada de todos esos números que escribía como loca, a veces llenaba hasta 5 folios de números para llegar a una solución... No podíamos hablar entre nosotros, pero siempre conseguíamos ingeniárnoslas para chequear si nos salía el mismo número, si era así es que lo habíamos resuelto bien y ya podíamos entregar la práctica. Al margen de los nervios que suponía tener todos los Viernes este examen había algo que me frustraba enormemente en esa asignatura, la solución ÚNICA. Me resultaba frustrante emplear tantas horas de mi vida en encontrar esa cifra y pensaba en aquel aula inmensa con todos aquellos cerebros llenos de energía e inteligencia buscando un número, el mismo. Me parecía que estábamos todos aplicados durante horas en una búsqueda que no aportaba nada nuevo... Yo no sirvo para eso, me puedo pasar horas haciendo problemas y estoy distraída con esa tarea, me resulta estimulante y bonita...pero al final siempre me ocurre lo mismo, llego a la solución y en vez de sentirme contenta me frustro ante la solución única. Es como si realmente no hubiera dejado trabajar a mi cerebro, no he podido aportar nada, cualquiera lo hubiera resuelto, no he inventado nada, no he aportado nada mío en ese proceso...
Pensaréis que donde voy con este rollo, pues voy a que últimamente estoy llegando al final de un camino de autoconocimiento que comenzó con aquellas reflexiones, me doy cuenta que necesito inventar muchas soluciones, no solo cuando diseño me gusta inventar cosas nuevas y disfruto haciéndolo, si no que me gusta inventar mi propia vida, darme cuenta de que hay múltiples POSIBILIDADES y no una única solución. La creatividad consiste en encontrar todas estas posibilidades diferentes, algo que cada cerebro inventa y talla como si fueran preciosas joyas, es costoso pero es emocionante y también estimulante ^_^
Os dejo con una adelanto de la colección en la que estamos trabajando y que pronto verá la luz, es un precioso estampado de Ana Sender y refleja esta búsqueda personal y mis reflexiones que muchas veces ocurren en la naturaleza, pronto os cuento más cosas...y os mostraré más bonitos estampados de la colección!!
Recently, at my parent´s, I found some class notes that I took when I studied Architecture. Notes from the Structure Calculation class. I still remember how hard that subject was. But even harder was the fact that I had to combine my studies with La Casita de Wendy at that time. Suddenly the company was taking off and I had to cope with lots of work so it was a little bit difficult for me to concentrate 100%. The situation was tricky because I had to study very hard while designing collections, organizing catwalks and attending to international fairs. Those days we used to spend fridays at the campus making numbers and trying to undertand formulas and algorithms. Me and my friends we used to meet there soon in the morning to practice to get ready for the evening exam. The exam was about solving a bloody complicated 3 hours long problem. Every friday we went through the same process of calculating structures, every friday the problem was different, and if I have to be honest, I must say that I can hardly remember anything, I completely forgot most of the numbers that I used to write down for hours, filling up as many as 5 sheets of paper to get to a solution.
During the exams, as normal, we were not allowed to talk to each other but we always found a way to find out if we had come to the same solution. That was the proof that we had it alright and we could exit the classroom. Apart from the inherent difficulty of the problem what I could not stand was the UNIQUE solution thing. It was so frustrating for me to spend hours and hours of my life just to get to a single number, and I used to think about all these people like me in that inmese clasroom, making their brilliant brains work just to get the SAME result. I thought that all that work was kind of useless, unable to add anything new. I do not have a mathematical brain, I know that since I was a kid. I do not feel attracted to maths, I just understand them, I can spend hours solving problems, I get kind of distracted, the process is logic, stimulating and nice, and then I get to the unique solution but I do not get fullfilled with it because I feel that I have not add anything at all, that I have not been able to create something new. At the end of the day the problem could have been solved by anyone. The whole process is not about us creating something new or somehow adding some extra value, instead it is about many of us getting to the same result in the very same way. Well, you might wonder by now what is my point. The thing is that I have been lately thinking about how my mind works and what makes my mind happy. I now know, after a process of self discovery, that I feel good when I can get to many DIFFERENT SOLUTIONS, and not only when designing. I feel good facing the fact that truth is multiple. Recognizing this make you free to go and find out many different ways to solve problems,. We just need to think that there are many posiblilities out there, many ways to go in this life and not just a single option, a unique solution. This is the essence of creativity, the fact that reality is multidimensional, and that we just need to feel ok with it. ^_^
Here I want to share with you this new pattern from our next collection, it´s about self-discovering and me playing with all this posibilities in nature, soon I will show you more...
